always be my babyy,

2010-01-09T23:22:00.000-08:00

I just can't help but must admit that some things might have changed between you and me.
Not sure what it is but i do hope that its because school is starting soon and we're busy with many things.
Hope things would still be the same...

2009-12-21T07:29:00.000-08:00

hmmm maybe its time to update abit on this blog after junhong reminded me today.
i guess basically nothing really interesting happened just training and training every week. Worries about the holiday homework inundated(i love this word i memorised=D) my mind. Then somemore got the ogl dancing thing. OKay la actually that one quite laxing, more chance for me to relax my mind. HOWEVER! the worst worst worst worst worst thing that im facing now is that im spending too much money-.-
BASICALLY totally i've spent a grand total of 110$ in 4 days-.- CRAP LA! how am i suppose to explain to my father when 50$ of it is supposed to be spent on paying my new specs and buy 1 year supply of contact lenses...... IM SO SCREWED!
NOW still got a class chalet coming up, outing with TNT on thurs or friday, Christmas BBQ with sec sch classmates at Terrence house, OGL camp from 7-9 or 6-8 i not sure...
SHIT IM BROKE! how am i supposed to explain to my father about this....
OKay i guess i will just have to go on diet now>.< sigh... have to starve on days of christmas and new year week....

OMG i didn't realise i can be so long winded today..... hahahahahahaha
okay la enough for today, maybe will update more if im not dead tomorrow!

2009-11-30T02:38:00.000-08:00

for some reason, i feel so dead again

2009-11-17T21:41:00.000-08:00

I am feeling so so so frustrated now.
Just feel like screaming.
Just want to talk to you..

2009-11-13T04:03:00.001-08:00

I hey a sudden urge to scold vulgarities, but i vow to remain silent.

Its time for miracle for me

2009-11-13T02:38:00.000-08:00

When i look at her eyes, the focus is not on me.
But on a guy just beside me.
Maybe its time for miracle to save me from this agony.

2009-11-02T05:18:00.000-08:00

i have no idea why is this happening to me.

i thought it wouldn't be possible at the start of the year.

However, the unthinkable happens.

Why WHy WHY!!!!

Somethings i hate myself for this.

I am determined not to let my emotions get the better of me.

2009-11-01T06:27:00.001-08:00

somehow i just got so jealous over small things lately. something is wrong

2009-10-19T07:24:00.000-07:00

Long Long Long Long time never come back ler.

Just want to write something happy that happen to me.

But suddenly depression overwhelmed me.

Now i feel i've been a failure for months.

Maybe not in studies but something else.

Our distance seems to be drifting further apart.

Perhaps its because of me again.

Sigh... when can i ever learn my lesson...

2009-07-18T23:44:00.000-07:00

WEEEEEEEEeee its been 1 month since i last touch my blog=D
Life is going quite well for me, finished my common test and kinda get the results that i am satisfied with=D
Bball training gets harder and harder every week.
THE most unlucky thing is that for no reason i kena fever on the most untimely week, never go school for 2 days and cannot go for 2 training sessions. Hope sham won't get too pissed><. Then to make things worst tomorow still got bbq at wenlynn's house and they were suggesting to stay over. DAmit i wonder if i can make it for the bbq or not given my state of condition now-.-
To add on i still got piles and piles of homework and the bloody EOM to do, also all by tomorow, monday 20th july. shitt laa..
Anyway today is my father's birthday(just found out from fb><), happy birthday dad(:

okay have to rush my homework already, byebye=D

2009-06-19T20:03:00.000-07:00

不知不觉的，今天已经是假期的第三个礼拜的星期六了。这也同时意味着快要开学了，考试也要到了。=( 我也应该开始做功课了，有许多的GP和physics功课要做。还有common test要复习，想到这个我就快疯掉了。=( 有什么人来救救我！我看我写写昨天发生的事吧。

昨天我和我的pw group(hong zhi and xiang-ling=P)到jaron的家去做project。他的家在kovan，我又要坐一个小时的mrt才可以到他的家的mrt而已。此外，我还要走大概20mins的路才可以到他的家。虽然他家很大，很好玩，又有很多的potato chips可以吃，我希望以后不要不需要再去他的家了，因为太远了！在他家从10.50am-5pm后，我们就走了。

过后，我想时间还早，就决定去zhongxi的家走走看看，顺便去看看她(: 想一想星期日要去chalet，我就顺便跟zhongxi借一个bag来用。过后我和他和amber和天使去gym。可是她的心情十分低落，玩卡的时候也是心不在焉的。我为她感到十分的担心。她跟我说是她与朋友之间的问题，而我没有做错什么事。但我心情还是七上八下的，希望我有什么可以做的来帮她，然她开心一下。可是这是她与她的朋友的问题，我最多能做的就是不去烦她，等事情解决后才跟她讲话，希望事情能快点解决，而她能心情变好一点。在我回家后，在msn她跟我说她好多后，我也就可以放心了(:

好了，时候不早了，我就此停笔，希望下一次来我可以写一些好的东西。

祝你：
身体健康

blarblarblar 启
6月2 0日2009年

2009-06-16T22:38:00.000-07:00

Yesterday had my 1 to 1 training with mr sham. Even though the whole training is only 1 hour, however it wasn't as easy as i thought it would be... i did things that the whole bball team would do all my MYSELF. 5 dribble/3dribble layups, both left and right hand, 2 throws both left and right hand, full court. which means i ran like dog yesterday and i must not miss the layups if not i would have to run even more...>.< nearly vomitted after this exhausting part... However, its good cause i know i would improve after today=D then afterwards its the easier part of the training where mr sham taught me some centre moves and drills. Finally when its the end of everything, what makes the training worth it is what mr sham told me when he was about to leave, "pan yu you are improving quite fast". Then silently, he walk away with style and disappears from my view.

Then after the training and bathed, i went to pandan valley(zhongxi's house) to meet angel and amber and zhong xi, perhaps for the last time this month. haisss the thought of this makes me 舍不得 to leave at the end of the day, especially when the people here are so nice and i enjoyed playing bball here very much, learnt some things as well from the Pros there, and of course, because of somebody whom i met here(: Initally wanted to play bball when i came here but, toooo burn out from the training with mr sham. So i ps amber and went to the "library" to play poker with angel and zhong xi. Manage to only win like... 4 rounds if i am not wrong, while losing most of the games >.< feel so useless. Then when the time comes... i took a last glance at pandan valley, at everyone, at the person and left with a sour feeling in my heart. Will be looking forward to coming to Pv again if i ever had the chance(:

Okay byebye for now=D

2009-06-16T12:01:00.001-07:00

wed, june 17 2009
9.43pm-2.43am
5hrs=D

2009-06-14T08:35:00.000-07:00

今天我要用华文来写我的BLOG(不懂华文是什么=P)，我要先申明一下，我的华文现在真得很烂，请多包容，不要笑我(:
今天又是一个无聊的一天，也没有什么有趣的事情发生。在我写我的BLOG的同时，我这时才觉悟到我的华文真的退步了很多，还好现在没有读华文，为此而感到十分庆幸。
我今天很可怜，早上的时候身体感到很不舒服，吃了早餐然后又吐了出来，四肢无力。结果我最后没有办法去我的篮球训练，为此我深感懊悔而且十分可惜。所以当我在下午起来的时候，我决定打电话给我的教练，约他帮我训练，弥补今天的过失。
然后，下午的时候非常的不辛，我的老爸接到了singtel的电话费的信。当他发现我上个月的电话费超过$130时，他十分生气，大发雷霆，把臭骂了一顿，让我十分伤心难过。): 所以我就拿我的功课出来做，使这要忘掉这惨不忍睹的事件。下个月不可以让电话费超过$60了，不让我就会从这世界的表面上从此消失。
我就这样一支做功课做到晚上，出门买饭，吃晚饭。吃饭后，看一下电视，discovery channel。这节目十分有趣，我很喜欢看(:。然后到了十点多，打电话给天使，跟她聊天，一直到了十二点，她就去睡觉了。

我的一天就这样的过去了(:
现在我也去睡觉了，再见(:

2009-06-14T06:22:00.000-07:00

在你离开之后的天空
我像风筝寻一个梦
雨后的天空
是否有放晴后的面容
我静静的望着天空
试着寻找失落的感动
只能用笑容
期待着雨过天晴的彩虹

why do i only realise this song is nice until 2009 when it is release years ago >.<
chinese songs ain't that bad afterall=D

2009-06-11T12:24:00.000-07:00

4hours 39mins=D

10.45-3.24

2009-06-11T11:59:00.000-07:00

YES! I BREAK THE RECORD! HAHA!
12 JUNE 2009

2009-06-08T10:02:00.000-07:00

welll... it seems like its a never ending misery for me. please put a stop to all this, i hate myself for this. Let my feelings just freeze, let it be as cold as a ice... i dreaded each coming day when i have to wake up and look at myself in the mirror, face the cruelty of the reality in front of me. Drag me out of this misery... please...

2009-06-06T21:35:00.000-07:00

WAKE UP BOY! its time to settle down and study=D DON'T play too much already=D

2009-05-30T07:56:00.000-07:00

i can only blame myself for not knowing you earlier.
Had a long day, time to sleep, goodnight(:

2009-05-25T02:03:00.000-07:00

"yay!" no bball in june AGAIN. =.= this is ridiculous..

2009-05-25T00:19:00.000-07:00

Last week passes by like a week during holiday. The school is so empty in the afternoon. No morning assembly, no temperature taking, no tutorials. Theres only 2 lectures in the whole day.
Though we can go home early, but the feeling just doesn't seems right. I don't feel happy despite early dismissals and that i can have longer hours of sleep. Something is just not right and not in place. Theres just seems to be a feeling of emptiness in my heart, a hole that just can't be filled no matter how hard i tried. Hope it will be a better week for me up ahead(:

I don't wanna miss a thing

2009-05-17T01:41:00.001-07:00

I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream would never do
I'd still miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
I don't wanna miss one smile
I don't wanna miss one kiss

Well, I just wanna be with you
Right here with you, just like this
I just wanna hold you close
Feel your heart so close to mine
And just stay here in this moment
For all the rest of time

2009-05-16T23:20:00.000-07:00

If you wanna know why i can't let go,
let me explain to you.
Every little dream come true with every little dream you do

2009-05-14T07:59:00.000-07:00

If i am a king, i would give up my entire empire for you.
If i am a beggar, i would beg for you all my life.

2009-05-11T05:26:00.001-07:00

They told me i could do anything if i put my mind into it.
Yet no matter how hard i try in all that i do, i just can't take my mind off you.
I love you dear(:

2009-05-11T05:21:00.000-07:00

Day or night, you are always on my mind,
I could see your beautiful face in my dreams at night.
No one else could replace the position you occupy in my heart.
Right from the start, i knew i am never wrong,
that you are the right one i am looking for.

2009-05-09T06:14:00.000-07:00

wooohooo another week passed and i settled my 2 test, gp and econs. 2 down 2 to go! However its also the 2 test that i dreaded alot too, chemistry and physics. AHHH chemistry i can't understand bonding, physics i scare i don't understand the question or apply the formula. OMG I AM SO SCREWED. To make things worst, HAVE TO HAND IN GPP BY THE END OF THIS TERM! AWwwww man this is sooooo stress man. I definately don't want to fail another test again or just get a sub pass. I still want my ogl next year T_T which is dependent on my results.

ok enough for this week le(:

the day

2009-05-01T19:20:00.000-07:00

1st May 2009, i finally puck up my courage for the first time in my life and asked her face to face. She accepted my present but result didn't quite turn out to be the way i've expected.
She neither reject nor accept, only said give me some time to think about it.
I am not sure whether this is a good sign or a bad sign. Whatever the result turn out to be, i hope before she gave me her answer, we could maintain the current relationship now and not avoid each other...

2009-04-28T08:07:00.000-07:00

我真的真的真的真的真的真的真的真的真的真的真的真的真的真的真的真的真的真的真的真的真的真的真的真的真的真的真的真的真的真的真的真的真的真的真的真的真的真的真的真的真的很累... 真像闭上双眼, 再也不用起来面对着残忍, 冷酷和现实的世界.

2009-04-26T06:41:00.000-07:00

Shes out from her camp!
but will she still treat me the same way as before?...

2009-04-24T06:07:00.000-07:00

Another long and tiring week as usual.
This week the council election results are out, and as expected she made it into council!
However, i am beginning to have mix feelings. After she made it in, she would have less free time, and would be even more busy, wonder when will i ever get the chance to go out with her again... Furthermore, our status would be worlds apart. While shes a school leader, i am just a lowly basketballer... Perhaps she might even fall for someone else in council.
But after much thought, i guess i should just continue to support her in any possible ways within my means and respect her decisions and choices.

Its the start of elects camp this week till sunday, and she can't use her handphone till the camp breaks. Hais i can't sms her for the weekend as well as today le... so torturous... definately will miss her like hell... Next week monday to thursday, it will be boarding for her. Wish her all the best for this camp and her boarding period next week(: hope it will a smooth sailing for her(:

Another week

2009-04-17T08:07:00.000-07:00

So fast another week have passed, finally the council campaigning came to a closure. At the same time, i am wondering whether this also mean that my chances are also ending too...

Seriously, for the past 2 weeks, i really can't imagine myself doing some things i have never imagined myself to do before. Waited for her at the bus stop for 1hr 15mins from 8 to 9.15pm, stayed in school to do the periodic table together with her until 8pm, sending her home almost everytime we went out, even if its late at night. Waiting for her everyday after school and walk with her to the bus stop to wait for our bus.

I hope i am definately not wasting both our time...

(:

2009-04-15T05:15:00.000-07:00

You are the reason that I breathe,
You are the reason that I still believe,
You are my destiny,Jai Oh! Oh-oh-oh-oh!

No there is nothing that can stop us,
Nothing can ever come between us,
So come and dance with me,Jai Ho! (oohh)

random stuff=P

2009-04-10T07:46:00.000-07:00

wth i can't believe i am listening to MICHAEL JACKSON song on 98.7fm!

2009-04-08T05:43:00.000-07:00

8th april 2009
Hais life still goes on as per normal now... no more basketball match to watch so must attend full day lesson as usual le...=( seriously jc is really much more demanding than secondary school... the only time i can relax is after school to go to the grandstand and play bball with the usual gang.

Tomorow is my first day of training in A div bball team. Wonder how i would cope with the tough A div training. People say mental will can overcome any difficulty, shall put that to the test tomorow=P.

Seriously, a blog is not private diary so i better edit this part away-.-, okay anyway good luck for the election!

OKay enough cursing for today le, have to grab some rest to get ready for tomorow's training!
BB!

2 months!

2009-04-03T08:28:00.000-07:00

2 MONTHS PAST
NJC is still as old as ever
Changed new basketball hoop at the court
Still play bball with hsiu yen after school everyday
Still only have bball training on sunday only
Got labelled as a "paikia"-.- ridiculous
HOMEWORK, still so screwed up
TEST, just passed or fail
Still hang out at the grandstand
Meet some j3 basketballer
Know some A div basketballer
Still so scare of boon and weiming and ren chao
GG=P

totally demoralised

2009-03-24T05:46:00.000-07:00

Today could be the worst day of my life in nj.... took the physics test today and i was totally taken aback by the questions. I couldn't do questions worth half of the total marks of the paper...
First time in my life i was totally defeated by a simple physics test paper. What the hell was wrong with me... i spent 1 week studying physics, hoping to prove my physics teacher WRONG in this lecture test for saying i CMI in physics. hais.. but what to do now, paper handed up and no more turning back.wait for the teacher to mark and get ready to see a single digit score, or maybe a little better double digit score with a fail.

Don't know why i feel that i am really not going to make it for physics... perhaps even other subjects i take such as econs, chemistry, math and gp. My academic path in njc just seems so dark and misty. Retaining in j1 suddenly seems to be coming true.

2009-03-21T04:11:00.000-07:00

March holiday is a big disappointment... This is mainly due to the fact that the long awaited basketball camp NEVER CAME. O well... actually it did came but its only for the A divison people... hais blame our skills and fitness can't get into A divison to join them. Miss out a chance to get to know the basketballer better. ARGgg although was frustrated at first but i won't give up bball just because of this campppp.

ok.. heres what i did. As usual... do homework and homework and study for physics, finally understand the projectile motion and rectilinear motion, as for scalars and vectors i am still not so sure if i get understand the whole topic fully.I will do well and prove that physics teacher wrong! say i CMI for physics.. wth-.-

Then go out with darren and jasper on tuesday to do homework at JE library. First time do homework outside... quite relaxing actually but can't concentrate much. So its still best i think to do homework alone in a quiet environment=)

Went to play bball at pending for 2 days, thursday and saturday. very tired but its kinda worth it=) Tried to do many stunts(esp dunking), but as usual all failed=P. Guess have to train my vertical more liao.

Went to SAJC on wednesday with terrence. Shun bian try my luck and see whether amanda is in school that day or not, and indeed she is =P. Then i find out she only had training in school for 1 day which is on wednesday! weee i am so lucky=P. Then after that see terrence train rugby... those ruggers are so tough and muscular sia! I guess if they give me 1 punch i may end up in the hospital already...

Ok thats all for my short and boring holiday=) signing off and hoping for a good start in term 2=)

2009-03-13T22:44:00.000-07:00

Have been hallucinating for the past few weeks in njc. Feel very stupid, should wake up from it soon and face the reality.

2009-03-13T09:13:00.000-07:00

weee i am back after 1 week break from blog=P. ok heres what i have done yesterday.
First, as usual play bball with hsiu yen again
Second, go acjc
Third, meet hans
Fourth, meet tnt and joaan and rou jing and crystal(aaron's cousin)
Fifth, meet daniel, hans and emo samuel
Sixth, go take mrt to bugis
Seventh, eat katong laksa and wantan mee
Eighth, go pending and realise the court is used
Ninth, go eugene house get bball
Tenth, go fajar
Elventh, get thrash by a noob bball team at fajar
Twelvth, play bball in total darkness
13th, went to vending machine and buy drink
14th, left fajar
15th, emo on lrt
16th, emo on mrt
17th, reach home
18th, blogging now
19th byebye for now=)

2009-03-05T06:41:00.000-08:00

Don't really have any idea whats happening to me.
Filled with regrets and sadness.
Just didn't have that kind of energy anymore.
Feel so confuse.
Feel so messed up.
Life is so mundane and boring.

just talking some nonsense=P

2009-03-03T06:15:00.000-08:00

blar blar blar.... don't feel like doing homework so come here crap awhile..
Its the second day of the week, class people are very nice and friendly, as usual play basketball with hsiu yen and darren, mix around at the grandstand area, trying to look like a student not a paikia. still find it weird why i still look like paikia after a haircut. As usual quite troubled over things, dong lam got into A divison while i am still stuck at the B divi... try to learn post up move but learn very very slowly and keep getting distracted by "you know who". Studies is like.. so screwed up already, physics can't get scalars and vectors right, kinematics especially projectile motion..... then see other people got the hand of it while i don't, suddenly feel like i am so stupid and useless. What the hell is wrong with me.. am i getting senile or what...zzzz

OK still got kinematics, scalars and vectors need to settle and also the stupid GP journal which is totally useless in writing that.

I shall end my nonsense here bye=)

disaster

2009-02-28T03:34:00.000-08:00

hmmm BU ZHI BU JUE it has been 4 weeks since i first came into njc=) surviving pretty well here and made new friends of course, one of which is hsiu yen=P(now i mention you don't be angry le ah=P). Recalling back, it all started off in the basketball court and the grandstand where i first saw hsiu yen. After playing with him for the first time, i realise he was very friendly and a very nice guy(not to suck up or anything=P), and so we became friends.

Today is suppose to be the day of the run road and i wanted to run it. BUT unfortunately, i was not feeling well and so i went to see a doctor instead. Then in the afternoon, have a meeting with hsiu yen and darren and so we went to jp and catch a movie. Then at jp, we decided to have lunch and hsiu yen suddenly surprised me and darren by saying he treating us lunch at fish and co! i was like sooooooooo stone when he said that, then i was wondering if there is really free lunch in this world o.O. ok so after we recover, me and darren obliged and went with hsiu yen to fish and co. Hsiu yen then suggested to have desert and starter course. AGAIN it took us by surprise as we see the exotic prices of the food. so not willing to make him spend alot of money, we order just 1 dish, but it cost 15$=P.

OK then after the meal, we went to watch movie. UNFORTUNATELY, my little brother is alone at home and i have no choice but to bring him out, cant possibly leave a primary 1 kid alone all by himself at home right. So i unwilling drag him and myself to jp. Saw daisy there but soon she zhao liao cause to celebrate cavin's b'day. HAISSSSS, AGAIN sadly my brother is over 90cm and so i will have to buy 1 extra movie ticket for him=.=, WASTEDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD. This is not the worst part. After we went in to see the movie, my brother was not able to keep himself stable and calm and seated, instead he was moving about and figiting around-.- and making alot of noise. THroughout the movie, he kept turning and was playing with the light at the side of the seats and kept telling em to turn on the light. He also went to the toilet for 3 TIMES during the movie. I was so sian-.- miss 3 parts of the movie then i have no idea how they are linked zzzz. Towards the end, he even go disturb the couples seated in front and i had to stop him. He also kept shouting,"wo yao hui jia!, ji shi ke yi hui jia!". i totally could not concentrate on the movie-.- wasted like 20$.... hais wo xin tong ah... for a poor guy like me 20$ is alot =(.

HAISSssss hope next time i don't ever have to bring my brother go out again, not again for movies. ANYWAY thanks hsiu yen for the fish and co treat today=) got chance treat you back again =)

AND happy birthday cavin=)(hope you see this somehow=P)

OG bbq

2009-02-20T21:20:00.000-08:00

Yesterday, which is friday we had a OG bbq outing at jeremy's house. i reached there at about 7pm after my basketball training and i was totally beat with headache. So, i went there and the first thing i do was to sit down and eat the food there. Surprising i saw emily there. She is actually one of my Og member but she kept poning the OG activities and so i did not get to even talk to her before for the past 3 weeks. So for this bbq i swear i will find a chance to chat with her.

Hais, blame it on my cowardness i was speechless when i tried to talk to her...... such a failure and disappointment. Whhhhy am i so useless at this... not long later after i came, molina, felicia and emily left... this is really a hugeeeee disappointment for me. After today's bbq, i wonder when will i ever get a chance to talk to her ever again for the rest of the 2 years in njc.(please dont misunderstand me, just trying to be friends with her)

OKay la but this bbq does not really revolves around her. after she left we had somemore food then was like damm full le, most of us dont want to eat le. Most of the og people then went to the function room to slack and enjoy the air-con while the rest of us stayed to accompany estelle who is trying to finish bbqing all the food. Even though we told her to stop, but she does not really seem to want to stop bbqing. i thought she was kinda of sad or angry and that she wanted to numb herself by getting herself to work continously. Anyway i was wrong.

Finally after much persuasion and "seduction", she stopped and join me, wendy, yilin, nick, jinghan and play heart attack. Then when the rest came back, we went to the function room and its our turn to relax. At the function room, i really hope that i could stay there for the night, it was soooooo comfortable, though there was no sofa or bed.

Then around 10pm, we left the room and join other members at the bbq pit. Took some photos and then all headed home. As soon as i reach home that night, i went to bath and immediately dropped dead. The end=)

An eye opener...

2009-02-16T04:03:00.000-08:00

I have finally seen a real basketball match for B divison boys with my own eyes! Today me, darren and huan yi(ex bukit panjang govt high bball captain) went to clementi stadium to watch the bball match between jurong sec and bukit panjang govt high. Before the match i heard that jurong sec bball team is gayyyyy and that they play alot of fast breaks and also their stamina doesnt seem to be able to be depleted. I was kind of sceptic about this as i knew in a real match, 10mins on the court is very pressurizing and stamina consuming. However, i finally seen for myself what is true pro.

When i reach the stadium, the match is already at its 2nd quarter with jurong sec leading by around 10 pts ba. I thought bukit panjang may still stand a chance to win. However as the match goes in, jurong bball team became more "enthu" and intercepted many balls and do many fast breaks which totally caught bukit panjang by surprise each time. Their coordination and passing are terrific!!! It was almost fawless and they could anticipate their opponents move. Their speed was also extremely fast and hard to catch up with, and most important of all is their super stamina, they like not tired or pressurized by the match at all! i wonder how their coach train them..... so as expected as the match drags on and in the last quarter, jurong sec lead about 40 pts.... Huan yi was also kinda expecting this result so he does not have much reaction. However me and darren were awed by their amazing skills and stamina and vow to train to be like them next year in A divison.

ok enough for today bye!=)

2009-02-13T08:37:00.000-08:00

Another week have passed and it has been mentally stressful for me..... but i believe i can get over this infatuation soon. While others went out to have their dates, i will be starting my own PT routine later this morning, got to get ready for the tough and intensive basketball training! Full attention towards studies and basketball now, must get rid of the distractions in my mind le!
Let nature take its course ba..

2009-02-12T06:43:00.000-08:00

FINALLY, after a long time of consideration and thinking, i have straighten out my thoughts. i would be silly if i give up basketball for her right.... so i have made up my mind and go for bball!=) finally a load off my heart. hope we are still friends=)

last day of orientation=(

2009-02-07T03:35:00.000-08:00

Time past so fast and its alrdy friday, last day of orientation for me...=( so sad... at first i thought a week time of orientation would go by slowly as i thought i would not really get to enjoy it alot.
But what i have thought is wrong. J1 orientation is the best orientation i ever had in my whole life!!! In this week time i get to know many new friends, especially my OG members. All of them are such nice people and are very friendly. We played, danced and ate together and had a very fun time together. In a blink of an eye, a week's time had past and its time to go our seperate ways....=( Time to get serious and start studying le.

ok aniway this is what we did on the last day of orientation. First in the morning we had a SHOWDOWN between the different houses! this is actually a water bomb fight and it was so fun! i blocked many water bags from getting into the hoolahop?(i dont know the spelling=P). ok so i got very wet as a result. after the first part, its time to bomb humanS! it was so fun to c my peers get bombed by me and get all wet! and i got hit also by ky, zhengwei and ben and cp and my OG members. Then all of us get so sick of making water bags that we just carry the bucket of water and pour at people we saw directly.In the end my OGL pour a bucket full of water onto my head-.-, total drench from top to bottom. Nvm i dont blame them as it is really fun!!! wahaha i guess i got abit crazy.

Then after the showdown its time to get ready for the final dance session! In this session we learnt a new dance for a new song call "summer night". i prefer this dance more to the dance for the song call"dont stop the music". Its much more easier to dance and more cute! ok im getting a little gay here=P. Mervin( 1 guy from my OG ) is amazing! his body is so flexible that the body wave he do is so sexy! and he danced really well with his partner(wei qin if i rmb correctly). OG4 rocks!

Ok after the mass dance go to the hall and watch the last video of the theme of this orientation.
Then is the house session time. So the whole of lignium house sit today at the amphi and learn lignium house cheer and played the cat and dog game. Ok i am really the unlucky soul and i get the cat and dog together for 2 times consectively which means i have to do forfeit for 2 times-.-
First forfeit i haf to do is the learn mervin's body wave. omg this is really hard to do as my body is like a rock! Luckily for the first time i do the body wave it looks like one so i wont haf to redo it again. Then it comes the nightmare. For the second forfeit i have to do the "fever" cheer in a very gay gay gay gay gay way. At first i thought this would be the end of me in njc but somehow something possess me and i manage to do the whole cheer! in a very gay gay gay gay gay gay way of course. Then my OG members kept saying i got infected by mervin's gayness =S. ok nvm its funny over.

Then we had pizza for dinner which we ordered. I dont understand why i love to eat pizza so much only manage to eat 41/2 piece of it and there are even left overs. Then somehow dono who crazily came up wif the chilly eating compeitition and of course i got involve in it as where. The chilly is the hottest i even eaten in my whole life. we poured the whole packet inside our mouth and let settle on the tongue and we chew it, after that we drink pepsi and let it stay in the mouth for about 10sec. luckily i did not pour the whole packet inside my mouth. the spiciness is horrible as pepsi amplifies the "sensation". i had to drink lots of water to get rid of the spiciness and i got quite dizzy as a result. Carmen and i cant take the spice but dono y jeremy and jing han can take it, they even ate 2 packets or more. Sometimes i wonder whether i made a wrong decision to pull out of NCC in sec sch....

So after the dinner is the Dance party! its kinda like the ones in pubs where everyone dance freestyle and crazily in the hall to the music played by the DJs. Omg the atmosphere was so high and i dont wan realli wan to miss out the fun. So despite the dizzy i went ahead and went high for like half and hour den come out dead. Hais becos of this i was too tired to go to my OG's dinner at KAP. So i pulled out and went home. thanks molly for getting me some water to drink and to other OG members who express their concerns. You guys r really great, awesome and nice, really hope we could still be in contact even after orientation when we are spilt up...

So in the end the day ended wif a sad note for me missing out the OG dinner. I swear i will not miss another OG outing again. But nevertheless on whole the orientation was really fun and exciting! Without u guys this orientation would be meaningless and boring and also thanks to all the OGLs who made this possible.(molly for organising external hunt at bishan, felicia and near
for leading us and guiding us in this new environment)

ok signing off now! bye!

2009-02-05T03:18:00.000-08:00

Fourth day of orientation which means its the second last day that i will be tgt wif my OG=(
really had a great time wif them even though i onli knew them for a short period of time.

Its the external hunt today! which means i would haf to go to different parts of sg to complete the game. First stop i went to bishan, had to reach there at 7am to meet up wif my OG to eat breakfast-.- From boon lay to bishan will take an hour train ride, means i would haf to wake up even earlier=( sian... ok ate the breakfast at MAC and den after go around bishan to the different stations to play the game. Even though it is very tiring as i would haf to walk long distances, im still enjoying myself alot!

Next we went to JE. how i wish my first stop is at JE and not bishan, cos after the external hunt at JE we haf to go back to school to report again, DEN I HAF TO take 174 to go back to boonlay again! another 55mins bus ride... zz

ok nevertheless i still enjoyed the external hunt as i get to bond wif my OG members. even get to noe somemore new ppl.

ok signing off bye!

2009-02-04T04:26:00.000-08:00

Its the third day of orientation today! finally its beginning to look like orientation, no talks or wad soeva by ani admin or staff of the sch. Did the mass dance today and i forgot almost all the steps i learnt ytd-.- den they nv review also, sibei blur today. ok nvm got over the dance part and proceed to the games! o ya today the successful appealers came to join us in orientation and luckily a very cute girl join my OG! omg i was like "aww" when i saw her for the first time and i was stun on the spot. She was very very very very friendly!! perhaps joining squash wif her ba haha. hais but the sad thing is i have no chance of being in the same class as her since she onli took 3 h2 subjects =(. hais...... nvm life still goes on.

After the dance we proceed to games stations! woo finally its time to haf some fun... got soaking wet, but nevertheless enjoyed it alot. went to piggy bag ppl and nearly collapsed-.- stand stationary there dono do wad stunts den like want to break our arms and back...

After the games comes the CCA exhibition! i was overwhelmed by the number and variety of fun and interesting sports CCA. Now dono go bball, tennis or squash wif that girl.... quite confused actually. nvm just c how the try out for each CCAs goes den c ba.

ok hope all my friends enjoyed their orientation so far for now =) signing off~

Another leap to another stage of life

2009-02-02T03:38:00.000-08:00

Its the first day of sch today for all my sec 4 frens going to jc! hope most of u guys haf fun during the first day of orientation. Eugene cheer up dont so moody liao, its not the end for u if u get into ajc.

Ok aniway the first day at njc start of well, even though we were late but luckily they did not take any actions or punishment against us or else it would be a bad day for all of us. After all the talks and interactions wif my OGL and some ip students from njc, i realise life at jc is totally different from sec sch. no teachers would really bother about u, which means some kind of freedom, but expect to take responsibilty for ownself, no more spoon feeding or wadeva of this crap like in sec sch.

Hmm as i have visualised the first thing i did when i step into the hall is to open my eyes wide and look around to search for chio bu O.o maybe my "prayer" was finally answered, it didnt really disappoint me afterall haha. hope tmr will be a better orientation day for me when i really can make frens wif more ppl. Hais but the sad thing is that there will be a mass dance tmr-.- which i detest alot, hope i can survive past it-.-

O ya i finally understand y girls skirt gets shorter in jc le(pls im not a pervert just a observation onli). The sch rule states the skirt can be 4 finger above the knee o.O which is totally not acceptable in sec sch. OK enuff for today le.

mr patrick signing off now bb=D
wish jc1 peps a happy orientation week =D

2009-02-01T06:09:00.000-08:00

JAsper singing dunno what

Aaron sleeping like dunno what

Darren dunno singing what

Who is this

2009-01-31T21:23:00.001-08:00

hello everyone! today is sunday which means its the last day of holiday for all sec 4 students! which also means its time for sch tmr =( sad.... hope that all my frens who appealed can get into their desired sch successfully.

ok lets c wad haf i done for the past few days.... on this friday 30 jan 2009 i went to njc to appeal wif ong and eugene, taking a tour at the same time. It was a huge sch compound, i guess first i have seen in my whole life and i love the environment there. of cos i saw some chio bu as well=D
hope my class got even more chio bu, dont wish to be in the same plight in sec sch... sad memorises haha. After that went to sing ktv with aaron, jasper, ong, gene and darren at orchard party world. First time i went to ktv in my life and i just love it! can sing like dog without ppl critizing wahahaha. got chance must go there again. have dinner there den go back home.

saturday as usual went to fajar to play bball wif tnt ppl. 9 ppl came wif some ppl missing. nvm still played full court 4v5 until i nearly died-.- run like dog for the first time in 2 months. then played 4v4 for the last match and i managed to injured a whole family( ong, jasper and gene) just by grabbing reboundo.O first time i injured so many players in 1 match sia haha. after the bball go to gene's house gamble and lost $1.30. lucky i humji or else lose like 5$ liao. others den played mahjong while i go to gene's laptop and played AI and steal songs from darren. play until headache-.- went home and faint in the end.

as monday approaches, a fear grew in me. perhaps its the thought of going to a totally new sch compound ba... not used to it. or the post holiday blues...

Everyone, pls do not not be late for school on the first day tmr=D

the first bai nian of this year

2009-01-29T07:30:00.000-08:00

wooo today is not wasted afterall again. went to ts house and then after that go to gene's house to bai nian. Actually not very particularly concern about the money inside the ang bao, most imptly can haf another gathering together=).

Terrence house was great, his ah ma cook alot of things for us such as curry chicken, fried chicken, the chinese sausage(i dono wads the real name) vege and some other nice and tasty food. Pity onli max can 15 or else more ppl can come. But despite the "sheer" number we did not even manage to finish half of the food cooked i guessed(very sry to terrence about this). how i wish i could eat more but i just dont haf the appetite... hais..... all the good food r wasted=(. Thx again terrence for the kind hospitality and invitation to come ur house and bai nian, we will never forget it=). For those who failed to turn up, i would say its ur lose ba

ok next we set off to eugene's house to bai nian. Onli me, eugene, eunice, zheng han, darren, jasper and jason ong came to gene's house, while some others like cheepeng went home, samuel, val, jess and jq went to catch a movie and the rest of hans montana gang staying at terrence house to finish up the food(sry guys for psing u all again as stated in terrence's blog). eugene's mum is nice and kind, a good host. then we play 21 pts at there, i was totally unlucky as i kept exceeding 21 pts and lose money-.-, luckily i onli played wif 10 cents so the loss was like onli 1$+ haha. Eunice and zheng han left early due to some reasons, but zheng han was back again after 1 hr or so wif his bicycle. frankly saying we were quite overwhelmed by zheng han's appearance again as gene betted he wont come back again o.O so we were wrong after all haha( zheng han no offence pls dont take it to heart).

ok soon after we left gene's house and headed for jurong point for dinner wif darren, jason ong and jasper to meet up wif jess, val and jq, while zheng han cycle home wif his bicycle. we were very shock when we found samuel was also wif val jess and jq! cos they previously watched a movie at westmall and did not expect samuel to travel all the way to jp again instead of going home after the movie. ok aniway we went to banquet to haf our dinner and discuss about the posting tmr. (One piece of advice samuel, pls do not curse ppl unnecessarily le, karma is true haha. ) ok after dinner darren and jasper and samuel( also known as CCK gang) went home while the rest of us went to swensens to treat jq to celebrate his belated birthday which on 24/1.
After the celebration we went to fairprice xtra to buy my milk and my first jolly! ok honestly the jolly thingy wasnt nice, or maybe is just i hate lemon ba. i wan to drink even more alcoholic drinks!!.

Soon, darkness falls and its time for us to part.
Again, a special thx to terrence and gene for the day!
and also for terrence's grandma and parents for cooking such delicious food today!

Tommorow is the day when the posting results r released. Wish all of my frens to get into the school they want! good luck!

Reunion dinner

2009-01-28T06:33:00.000-08:00

Finally, a meaningful day for me(no more starring aimlessly at com screen). Today went to ngee ann city to have a reunion dinner with the tnt members at seoul garden. food there were in abundance and many varieties but sadly my stomach could not contain all the food =( aniway had enjoyable meal there except that brendon screw up my ice kachang whithout me knowing, putting icecream with chicken inside it-.-. aaron and brendon did some crazy things like frying the ice cream and "marinating" the ice cream with the chicken. But the most funny thing is that the tomyam soup can taste like "dead sea" water, from spicy to salty-.-, nearly puked. i nearly got raped by jasper too o.O

Aniway thanks to all the tnt members who turned up today=) had a enjoyable time, hope to have another future meeting again with u guys

haha

2009-01-27T07:07:00.000-08:00

after much thought and enlightenment from jess, i shud stop my emo style and be myself again=D

The beginning

2009-01-26T21:29:00.000-08:00

Let me start off by wishing everyone a happy chinese new year! hope everyone have a good and successful, and prosperous year ahead!

Ok, finally i decided to start a blog is due to influence by my frens especially mjfc(terrence and shijie), and also i realise blog is a gd way to vent out thoughts and feelings.

SPECIAL THANKS TO: Eugene khor and Aaron Goh(排名不分先后)
without them i guess i would have screw up the whole html stuff-.-

ok thats all for today, bye!
(pls link me!)